Jump!★

This MCO in a way was God-sent for me. I recognize that not everyone is in the same situation and I really do wish that people won't have to lose jobs over this. =( I really am very fortunate to still get paid fully every month and my company also gifted us extra money to pull through. Financials aside, throughout the MCO I went on a psychological roller coaster ride, but that's not what I want to focus on for now. Enough about me feeling shitty. I want to focus on the fact that I finally had time to indulge in activities that I put aside after my final year project started (and after that, work).

The month begun with me being super productive, wanting to do everything because I was excited to finally have a whole day to myself, but as the days go by, I find myself getting lazier and chill-er hahaha. And then I had a breakdown because I found myself not wanting to do anything, but I want to do something, but I don't feel like it and then I felt useless. It's an endless cycle. Omg S T O P. 



W O R K

Work-life balance actually exists for once! It's no secret that the animation industry has tons of over time work and is relatively low paying, so the MCO helped significantly because I didn't need to drive or eat out, which meant that I got to save more than usual. T_T I also got to save my sanity in the process. In terms of work, I was so much happier and productive than I was back in the office, mainly because while I was waiting for render I could do housework or eat whenever I want. (When I was in the office, I would eat dinner late because of OT and then I would have gas or gastric. I didn't want to eat out because that would mean spending more money and I can't claim dinner money unless I eat at 8:30PM which is just too late.)

I am generally a fast worker and being at home with internet access to find for solutions (for work technical problems) made me work even faster. Our internet usage is restricted in the office and we have to use the community PC to search for solutions which is a little inconvenient. For me the biggest advantage of working from home is that I'm not being monitored physically. I have a bad habit where I try to make my work perfect and stress myself to look busy, so being able to relax made me go easy on myself a little, and honestly it made me a little saner and I came to the realization that it's OK to not look busy all the time as long as I get things done on time.

B I N G E - W A T C H / R E A D

H O B B I E S

This month, I reconnected with art. It's so funny (and quite sad) that artists often lose the drive to draw or do creative things once they start working. During MCO, I had time to sit down and express my heart out and it's feels satisfying. I took as long as I need going over the details - the gift of time is just amazing. Because of this, I re-evaluated the way I spend time and why I was feeling so burnt out and unfulfilled recently. I think the simple answer is that I need more time for myself. I need to go out and do things by myself, because ever since moving back home, my autonomy has been rather restricted and it was hindering my sense of independence.





Made another fairy garden! My supervisor Boon was so kind as to buy me this pot and handed it to me just before MCO so I could start on some plant project. Seriously what did I do to deserve such kind friends? It makes me problems seem less painful.



N E W   T H I N G S

Never stop learning in life amirite. And so begun my venture into free online classes and countless Youtube cooking videos.




I like this lyrics from AURORA's song Daydreamer and so I wrote it out.



I made dark chocolate tart with the big pile of dark chocolate I got from my colleague, aka my chocolate supplier. Seriously again, I have good people in my life. T_T The tart turned out so rich and not too sweet. I also made banana smoothie with the portable blender I bought online (I caved in because I wanted a good portable blender for so long.) I bought it here if you're interested!