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Tuesday, 1 December 2015

First off, Happy December!

Second off, I think you notice that I have an additional page at the top beside Photography, which is basically my old blog where you can browse (if you want to) at some of the things I said that doesn't make sense. The newer posts make more sense than the older posts because I got older and more sane HAHAHAHA.

What I did was to go back to the first year I blogged because I decided that the newer posts are not so weird and what I discovered was that I wrote a lot of strange stuff that was probably my fault. I don't know. I shall put the extracts here as I find them amusing and stupid and just for the sake of reminiscence.

I laughed and face palmed at myself. OTZ

Btw, I don't know if I'm going to do a series or just let it be but I'll just put #1 for in case.


"When we were waiting at the bus stop, Dion went off somewhere. Kingston just came out and stand beside me. I know he is there, but I just keep looking around as if he's invisible or something. Then he look at me with the face expression like ' Umm... hello? Am I invisible or something? '

Then he go away and stand somewhere where he can look at us. Then me and Dion go and check if my aunty had arrived or not. We walked past him and he look at us again. And finally he went home. Maybe it's because of the lack of attention? I'll never know. Boys are quite hard to understand actually. To me."

Kingston was this guy who used to like me, but that time I didn't know yet. He was quite sweet for a 14 year old guy and I admired his courage now that I'm older. When you read the above words, I seem like I thought something was wrong with the guy but now that I read it, I was the problematic one lol. Wtf was wrong with me ahhh.

I'm just randomly clicking into blog titles I think have something interesting in it because obviously I won't go through one by one hahaha.

Now that I've read through some more posts about the same time, I came to one conclusion and I just wanted to really say one thing:



"Today during assembly, I turned around and saw Kingston standing with a prefect. I don't know his name. Then I turned a second time and I saw Kingston standing at the far end of the assembly hall. Then a teacher scold someone and I turned around and saw him standing beside Brandon who is guarding my class. Then teacher scold another people and I turned again and saw Kingston standing nearer to my line. He also seem quite down today."


I didn't know that I made the poor boy like that. He probably thought I didn't wanna be his friend. I'm so mean, gawd...


When me and Dion is eating and talking, I felt something. I look at that direction and I saw a girl looking at me. She's quite pretty but she's the kind of girl that you would hate. Then she tell her friend something and her friend look at me. I just continue to look at her. I was thinking ' What you want to say, say lah! You talk about me then that's means you are talking about yourself lah! ' Then I just don't care. I told Dion about the girl and ask her to pretend that she did not see the girl. 


Alright, hold on. What. Was. Wrong. With. Me. I'm getting a heart attack reading all my 13y.o. posts.


"Hello, now I'm playing teacup party with Dion. She ask me to play out of boredom."


Trivia: The both of us have no recollection of this memory.


"I didn't go for ice skating lessons. I just play in the ice rink. I wanted to go ice skating because I like speed. The first time I go, I got bruises on my knee. But I still go the next week. Until now I still don't want to give up ice skating no matter how much it hurts. But of course I don't want to be fractured for the rest of my life. 
I felt lucky because I didn't give up last time. Now when I go, I didn't fall. Rarely. If I feel like I want to fall, I'll just automatically stand up again. "


Aww I miss skating!! I still rarely fall, if at all hahaha. #proudachievement


"Hello, I don't have anything to do so I just surf the net for something that interest me that is wizardology, drangonology and fairyopolis. I quite like pirateology and egphtology too.
I want to do a research on them and prove that they exist but I cannot do that because I will be breaking their rules. I must not tell anyone anything."


When you found the passion of your teenagehood. Those were the times... It's nice being able to be ignorant of the world and be in your little bubble of imagination. I still do research though when I'm free. The latest one I remembered was about pederasty. I just have so much interest in what ancient people do and live for.


"But I only shop for books not clothes or jewelery. It's a very important book that I need to read. If not, I'll die if boredom. I can't stop reading anything. I like to read too much!
If I saw a sign, I must read it. I will absolutely READ anything and everything! I don't know why I like reading. I've like reading since I'm a small child. They're interesting!"


Oh, being able to be excited for the little things. I was and still am excitable even though I don't show it much nowadays (in person or in writing) but I'm still very much excitable when I'm with people I'm familiar with.


"Today when we go to Nisshaa's house, we stop by at 7 11 to some snacks. We go there today to write and try to complete our project. Tomorrow I'm going to Nisshaa's apartment to SWIM! 
Today Nisshaa, Jen Nee and Nisshaa's 2 sisters swam while me and Dion throw stones into the swimming pool for them to find. I didn't come out with the idea."


I remember this like it was a few months ago. :) That was the first time I was able to 'dive' underwater in the pool, because of the stone game, which I found really fun. I couldn't believe I can do that.

OK that's it for now for today and maybe I'll update again when I find something interesting! Even though the things I did was stupid, it provided me with enough info to do an analysis of why we didn't do well in secondary school somewhere in the middle. And how unfriendly I seem to people when actually I was too shy to make contact.

A little bit about Kingston as I don't think the above extracts are enough to justify why I feel as bad as I did now. He liked me a lot, like a lot, and I think I liked him a little too but probably not even a lot. I didn't really like like him, but I thought he was a pretty nice friend. #friendzone #dense

He started chatting with my sis and gradually revealed that he likes me but he didn't know I was beside my sis the whole time he chatted with her LOL! Which means I knew that he liked me but he didn't know that I knew he liked me. He was a prefect and I somehow liked it when only 1 button is unbuttoned (as it was 'cool' to unbutton 2 buttons) and when his hair was down instead of swept back up. It made him look humbler and more good boy which I liked as I think it made him look cuter.

He would try to chat with us after school hours and sometimes I see him making himself up in the way I like when the previous day sis told him about it. I was surprised but being the stupid and tongue-tied me (still is tongue-tied but probably not so stupid), I didn't let him know I acknowledged it. I always felt so bad. I should have said he looked nice or something. Ugh.

When he went to Egypt for a vacation, he promised to get me a souvenir. I attempted a call from my house line to Egypt can you freaking believe that. I was this dedicated to our friendship. At least I got to hear Egypt; I remembered hearing the wind. When he came back though, I think something must have happened on his side as our friendship abruptly ended. I had no idea why. He always liked talking to me and it was just strange.

Maybe something happened that I didn't know because I know he's not that kind of boy. I just let it be as I don't like forcing people and until this day, I will always think of him and the Egypt gift. Slowly, days turn to months, months to years, and years to more years. Now it's just a memory from 5 years ago. #bittersweet

So that's all for storytime!