I decided it was time I did not hide behind a front. Many years ago during my younger secondary school days, I had a blog under my name which I unfortunately had to abandon because of personal security issues. But my longing to write grew stronger the more I distant myself from my blog, hence the creation of a new blog several months later without using my name. I strove to be anonymous. I felt really insecure blogging again but still I wanted to, so I went ahead. Fast forward 6 years later, here I am, changing my blog url back to my own name because I had enough of feeling like my identity was ripped away from me. I finally feel safe enough to use my name again, and I hope I am right.
Also because I accidentally gave away my blog's existence while doing a university assignment so a bunch of my friends were reading my blog, which made me feel hesitant to write anything too personal here as I don't know them that well. It made me paranoid not knowing which of my friends were reading it too so I decided to move url spontaneously once and for all.
It's strange how I'm such a private person in real life, yet I love sharing about life here albeit not much. I've always wanted to be relatable and I want my family and people who discovered this blog to enjoy reading and being here. Recently I've been thinking about how I can create more engaging and interesting content, but I figured that my life isn't so happening at the moment. All I can share about is my internship or family day outs or my dating life. Most of the time, I find myself not having good motivation and energy to even write a complete blog post that satisfy myself. I'm just a lazybum, you know? Many times, I wish I am just as chillax as I was when I was younger, to write in my blog whenever something was bothering me or when something intriguing happened, no matter how loony it sounded. To treat my blog as a sanctuary to escape to.
I want to be real here, I want to say what I want, show what I want. I want to be comfortable just like I used to be many years ago. There's something magical about being young, naive, and too open. Now I'm just thinking and thinking is it ok to say this, say that? This is my blog, I can write anything, right? Will I be able to articulate myself well enough since I'm supposedly an 'adult' now? Yada yada yada.
Maybe the key to it all is to just do it. Do not think too much. Then, perhaps I can create something magical.
Why Did I Change My Blog URL?
