Jump!★

So yesterday's post marks the end of my year-long project which I'm proud to say I didn't abandon halfway! This year I'll try other projects to keep my year entertaining. I think every year if I can, I'm gonna do a year-long project. I have already decided what I'll be doing this year; I'll get 2 containers, one for Good and one for Bad and write down in little pieces of paper what my ups and downs of the year is.

I have to make sure not to spam lol, or I'll end up with countless amount of papers. So by the end of the year, I can read them back. The purpose of this project for me is to find out how good and bad experiences balance/compare to each other. When there's up, there's gotta be down, and vice versa. It's going to be interesting I think. This way I can also look back on what affected my life.

Every year has a lesson to learn, according to what happened to me. It's a game of life. Some people's Life Game starts earlier while some later. For me, mine started at about 15. And from then on, every year I have some major change in my life. They really do shape you. Some changes are harder to cope than others, but know that you should not give up.

Maybe this year I'll have another big lesson too. And I'll try to handle them like all the past years. Ultimately, I want to develop myself to become the person I always internally wanted to be. To be the person I needed when I was in primary school and also the person I needed in secondary school. For now, I am on my waaaay, so I'm quite glad. But still there are some parts of me that are hard to develop because some things just aren't so easy to forget.

When I was younger, I swore to myself that I wouldn't ignore kids and I will make kids happy because when I was younger I hated feeling ignored by adults sometimes, and now that promise is still intact hahaha. Kids are worth it to make them feel wanted and loved, even when they are being annoying and stupid. Maybe they won't remember the little things, but I believe the little things in childhood is what makes or breaks a person when they grow up.

When I'm this age, I still remember all the little things that make up my childhood. Sometimes you remember them more than the big things because the little things are constant. They are in your daily lives. Sometimes you don't remember the good stuff, but you have to keep reminding yourself that though you can't change how your childhood was, you can decide how you want to be now. It's not easy definitely, but it's the one thing you can do for yourself. :)

I thought, if every year I can have a big lesson (good or bad), instead of feeling like I don't wanna go through it anymore only, I will also take some things out of it to improve myself. It's a waste if I don't anyway. In this way, you can also turn something bad into something good for yourself. More like, I always make it a point to take something out of any major experience in my life and not be just 'been there, done that'.

Basically my biggest goal is not to be a jaded adult. There's too much of adults like that and we don't need more haha.