Jump!★

Well, 2 posts in one day for today. I can't believe I just sat here since about 1pm doing assignments with less procrastination than I normally do until 10.30pm. That's such an accomplishment. I guess you can only do this feat when your heart is empty and have no where else to go except to seek refuge in your assignments. Luckily for me, I enjoy doing my assignments (assuming that nothing goes wrong lol).

I started using my Twitter more actively again today since it has been neglected for some time. I'll see how it turns out. I hope I don't abuse it hahaha.

Now I really just feel like locking myself in the room doing assignments. I don't want to deal with anything else. It's better if my mind is occupied. More so, should I say, my mind is more occupy-able since the incident. I don't really care much for it anymore outwardly. There's nothing to be done. ;)

And I hate talking about it. Slowly, it feels more comfortable to just let go of everything. I just want to say, I am happy for you and your happiness makes me happy too. I will cheer you on from the sidelines with some random mixed feelings that I can't help feeling. Maybe time will heal everything. For now, I still don't know what to feel but please understand if I distant myself from you; that's the only thing I can do to make it hurt less for me.

Believe me when I say I don't want to do this. But I need to. I am trying my best to hang in there and would prefer it if you don't realize how I'm feeling. I believe you never do most of the times (which is a good thing for you), and I'm OK with it. :) I don't want you to see me moping around because of you. I want you to be free and happy, so be. It's definitely a no biggie for you, but if I didn't feel at least a little emotions, it means I didn't care. But I do, and that's why I feel emotions.

I need to clear my mind to see some logic and make sense of the world around me now.

Back to my assignments - I ended up completing my all Research and Reference in one day which is quite OK I guess. I am secretly proud of myself haha. Sometimes I can't help but be a workaholic (in the uni sense); it makes me feel better. Masochistic much lol.