Thursday, 30 July 2015
I might have been more stressed than I let out to be or admitted.
Stressed in certain parts, but mostly at having too much to do. I love it, but sometimes I feel so mentally tired because I am giving my best at everything. I have been managing to manage my stress and workload, so it doesn't feel that much. Sometimes it feels like much because I told people and they comment on it. If I were to keep quiet, maybe I won't get that response.
I just want to tell people stuff, but its like their depiction of stress is different than mine. Or we just react in different ways. So I get confused when someone ask me to chill when I am already chill, but I try to understand from their angle. Perhaps from the way I express stuff, it really did seem like that.
I try not to take it to heart and just suck it all up. It's not easy at first but as you progress, it becomes easier.
Dance practice later, ganbarou. :)
When I was chatting with Giang just now which turned to ranting, he said I was unchill. "Just do what you want and don't care so much about being perfect to the lecturers," he said something along this line which brings back my memory of Mr.Amir telling me not to be a robot student.
After Giang told me I was unchill, I was a little hurt but it didn't stay in my heart for long. Suddenly after calmly listening to some Barbie songs, I felt really motivated to do assignments so I started on my VRC3.
