Thursday, 31 April 2015
I measured my hand with Giang's just now.
Ever since coming to uni my hands had been so small compared to people in secondary school. It was a bit of a shock as I came to realize how grown up uni people are. Giang's hands often remind me of Mom's when I was a kid and looked at her hands. The feel is almost the same too.
"It's because this is a man's hand; not a boy's. It's a man's," his comment when I said my hands don't used to be this small in comparison.
"I feel like my hands still look like a kid's," which I sincerely think so as I stare at my hands and wonder why it still is so small and child-like.
"From head," *he points to my head* "to toe," *points to my feet* "you are still a kid. You're a kid." *points at me*
Yesh I know. To him we are still kids lol. He never fail to show that by the way he treats us and talks to us. Except when we talk about more serious stuff like relationships or some life stuff.
I did light drawing again just now before dinner because Che Mat wanted it to be vertical. ... So on I donned my black Career Fair '15 jacket and off I go with my camera and Giang's head light.
Preparation
Che Mat said OK to my previous concept so I did the same, except I added black yarn for more decoration.
Hands after handling the coloured plastic
I made the colourd plastic myself. It was a cheap alternative but I have to say quite worth it. I took clear plastics and used my magic colour to colour over them several layers so that it becomes opaque enough to be seen with the lights behind it. It came out good over the camera though so it was worth the colour bleed hahaha!
Next week is the last day for Photography consultation and I still have three more to go. ... He wanted me to re-do my traffic trails (even though Mr. Aliff accepted it that time). Knew I should trust my gut feelings and shown him earlier. *sigh* What to do, it can't be reverse. I just gotta keep calm and in control these last crucial weeks and not mess myself up. Rushing things are not good either (well, it depends).
Luckily no body ache from yesterday's ice-breaking - I'm really surprised though! Guess I shouldn't under estimate myself sometimes.
Jared told me my insecurities are over the roof because I don't have confidence in myself when people have confidence in me. Jared, Ken and Giang told me that I was the strong type (and that they believe in me) but I didn't really trust myself so they realized I don't have much self-esteem. What to do. I'm trying.
Was supposed to go on an outing with Giang and sis tomorrow but I accidentally organized my VRC2 group's meeting/outing to buy stuff tomorrow. T^T So we postponed it to Monday. I feel so bad, but on the other hand, if we don't buy it tomorrow, our progress will be dragged behind. Hope can finish it in these short days! Go me!
This sem, although short, was exciting in a way as it is hectic. People said short sem for foundation tend to be very stressful but up until now (Week 5 out of 7), I can safely say I'm not really stressed out yet. Thank God there is only one group work but other than that is OK, maybe except my Photography which is kind of going down. Lol.
Grant me luck for Photography so I might capture all my pictures, please!
p.s. I have conflicting feelings because while I am worried a bit for my assignments (well, only some of them), I am also feeling really excited for MMU Awards and think about what hairstyle I'm gonna do!! First time going to an elegant event and everyone will be pretty and handsome so I'm quite excited!! Can't wait to find each friend and take picturesss. Aarun, Ken, Giang, Edmund, Jared, Rahman, swim club people, Eli, Sandy, some of my classmates - arghh I can't wait! I don't think I'd ever felt so excited to be in a social event before.
