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Monday, 20 April 2015

Why do I always spell Chapter as Chpater first ugh.

Starting off my day with a little writing because it has been a while.

Stayed up till 4am to do my VRC 2 yesterday and rewarded myself with the honour to sleep till 11am today.

The June OC interview. I don't know how it went but I was feeling pretty down after it. We went in as a four person group and for us, there was only one interviewer. It was Taseen so I feel like at least I have someone I know in here but I have to be careful not to show that I know him.

I was the third person in a row so I would be third to talk. We started off by spelling our names and he wrote it down on a blank piece of paper which has already been sorted in column and rows, probably to write comments (though I didn't see him writing any). I wasn't feeling nervous or anything prior to going in and thought that I would be OK, but was I wrong. As soon as I sat on the chair, I got anxious out of nowhere.

I tried my best to remain calm and coherent and hoped for my brain not to blank out. Fortunately Michelle told me to memorize my Dean's name because that's what he asked me! More on that later. After asking our names, he asked for our Faculty and Year ("FCM, Alpha Year, Sem 2."). I am so glad I knew Foundation is Alpha Year as I have no idea which Degree years are Gamma, Beta and Delta lol. Have to find out next time.

Then he asked us to introduce ourselves, "not why you want to join the orientation committee", our personalities. (There were 3 girls and a guy in our group.) The first girl Kenny was so damn confident. I think she prepared a lot for this. I was a little put off by her attitude though because she came off as a little too strong but who am I to judge. I envied her ability to answer confidently and lengthily while I just sat as normally as possible in my seat, trying not to think so much of my answer. I will just shoot as it comes so that it can be as true to my heart as possible. Well, there was a risk of not being able to say anything from unpreparedness.

Taseen asked the girl a lot of questions, tricky ones like if she thinks she is friendly to people, bla bla bla. She said she'll try, to most of the questions. "Anyone can try," Taseen replied and I cringed a bit. Later on, he shot her a lot of interrogative questions and I was like oh no what am I gonna answer if he does this to me. T^T

The next person, the guy Izzat, was also quite confident, though in a more reassuring way. I kinda like him because he seems like a nice person. Taseen shot him a lot too, though not so much as the first girl. They seemed to have interesting repertoires and I was thinking of myself in comparison. Well, I have a lot of clubs but it is usually leisure clubs like swim club, JCS, yoga, CMC... haha. I couldn't possibly be impressive with that.

"OK then, Fion." I tried to think, what is it I want to convey. I don't want to be impressive or skilled; I just want to be true. Michelle said some people make up answers and then get shot down later on when they couldn't explain more and I didn't want that to happen to me.

"I was quite shy in secondary school and not really participative, but when I came into uni I had a lot of opportunities and it gave me a lot of experiences so I like uni a lot."

I didn't know what else to said and smoothly, he moved on to the last girl, Nat. I thought my answer was too amateurish and personal, but that's what I wanted it to be; as me as possible. I was quite surprised he didn't ask anything more. I just hoped he saw me working in events (materially or through FB pictures). I had 6 events in my first sem alone haha. That's a little too much for a newbie lol, but I didn't do important stuff except maybe for Career Fair (which he saw me at).

Nat was OK too, quite friendly, but Taseen shot her too. I begun to feel weird then because he didn't shoot me. Maybe later on, I thought because Ken said they like to shoot people and some people cried when it gets too intense.

He asked us why we wanted to join too afterwards and I said it was because I wanted to try something new and out of my comfort zone. And also for self development.

Moving on, he asked us about the important people in school (Deputy President of Academics, own Faculty's Dean, Deputy President of the Students' Council Representative, etc). He asked Kenny about two or three (she could only answer about one), and Izzat about two (I think he got it). When it was my turn, "Who's your Dean?".

"NeoTseKian," I answered a little too quickly and I think I saw him hold in a laugh. Then I thanked Michelle in my heart.

He never asked me for more later and I was thinking I got off a little too easily. After Nat finished answering, he paused for a while, "Are you nervous?" he looked at me. "Yes!" I laughed. "I want to bite you," he said and I got surprised for a while as I try to process that info. It made me a bit relaxed at least so it was good.

We had a do a simulation at the end where this two freshies refuse to go for the orientation and we have to convince them to stay. I didn't know what we were supposed to do and I asked Nat (she doesn't know too) and we just stood there while the other two approached the two freshies. After standing for a while and analyzing the situation, I went to Izzat and then sat down at the sofa next to the freshie and tried talking to him. Izzat was nice enough to pave a way for me too.

The first thing that came onto my mind was why does he has internet? Wait, maybe he has data. So I disregard that thought. One of the sad thing that happened when I came into uni was figuring out that in order to use the wifi, you have to enter your student ID and password. I forgot what I blabbed in front but I remembered telling him that he has to go for the orientation because they are going to brief things and he won't understand if he don't go. And also in response to his "I can make friends in class, there are so many people! Who are you? Are you popular, a celebrity? I don't have to know you!", I said "Well, you don't have to remember us later."

I think it was a bad answer hahaha, but it's over anyway.

I hope he not shooting me doesn't mean that it's going to deter my chances. ;_; What if they want confident people only. But all the OCs I met are people who are really just normal and understanding.

Taseen then asked if we are able to make it to the 2-weeks camp in the event that we get chosen, and will not be a quitter at the end of the day. Suddenly my sickness came into my mind and I got worried a little. I am not supposed to be so harsh on myself but I want this so badly. I didn't say anything. It's always this issue, ugh. Whyyyyyy. Please let me make it through the interview and then through the camp please! T^T

I came out and went to sit back with Ken. (We came together after an early dinner.) Luckily I was in the first session so I didn't have time to worry so much. Ken was after me, and he was so chill and stuff like he usually is. It was very nice to have someone to accompany me though. Thanks Ken for registering together!

Michelle told me yesterday in the chat that Taseen shoots people when he thinks they are bragging so I'm probably safe. I hope so!