Jump!★

Tuesday, 31 March 2015

A relaxing swim-and-chat time with sis. I don't really talk to the other members when I swim, mainly because they don't talk to me. This Ken! When we approached him, he asked why we are here omg. And this Shang Jun! It was raining today so sis and I were a little late. When we reached the pool, Shang Jun told us that we don't have to pay. I was a little doubtful, but whatever, OK. Halfway through our swim, one of the security people (that also went for a swim) asked if we wrote our names in the piece of paper for pool-users and paid. We said no, so he asked us to remember to pay later.

We confronted Shang Jun about it and he's like "No, I didn't say that." Ahh!! We said we both heard it omg stupid Shang Jun trying to act innocent. Later the security thought we are those free-loading-lover girls!! Giang came a little later and kept on free-styling until the end. He really loves swimming so much. The both of us kept submerging underwater to watch him swim and turn at the end. So cool... He reminds me of a dolphin. No, accurately, people swimming reminds me of dolphins.

I thought I would have forgotten how to swim but I swam better than I did last sem! It felt so great.

We swam in the drizzling rain.

Had a satisfying dinner just now with the swim club, just 7 of us. The side of the table with Ken, Giang and us two was so cramped our hands can touch when we eat. The times I went out with the swim club last sem, Giang wasn't that close to me, even though he was kinda close. But now you can obviously see that the three of us is very close... He is really becoming the brother friend.

Sometimes things become TMI lol. Yesterday we had a late dinner. Ken invited us but he was with Kah Loon. Sis is a little uncomfortable with Kah Look cuz of past things which she told me and made me a bit uncomfortable with him too (he has a particular habit of being very close with girls).  We saw Giang on the way to the canteen... and Eli.

What I didn't like was that when we sat at the long table, Eli didn't sit in front of Ken or Kah Loon even though the three of them were the only ones at the table that time while Giang, sis and I went to order our food. I didn't know if it was deliberate but she sat on the next table, but on a different side than Ken and Kah Loon (who sat together). She must have known that we wanted to talk to Giang because she knows that we are close and always talk.

I couldn't make up my mind about her actions. So the both of us had to sit in front of Ken and Kah Loon (I sat beside her). I always have to sit in front of Kah Loon because sis doesn't wanna sit near him, much less in front of him. I don't really mind though cuz I'm not that familiar with him. It's just... Eli... why. *sigh* Giang and us didn't talk much during that dinner because it would be cross-talking and would be considered rude since Eli doesn't really speak Mandarin.

The way she is laughing at the things he said and the way he is being funny to her (like he is to everyone else) is hurting my heart a bit. It gives me mixed feelings. Sis said it later on to me too, so I guess it's not just me. But, well...

But it's obvious that he is close to us by the way he speaks. When guys get close to you, they rarely sensor their words because they feel comfortable saying it to you. Maybe that's the case with girls to guys too. We were talking about some stuff, which Eli was listening to (she listened to all our conversation), he casually said "I had never been to your room." lol. It must have sounded weird to her. Obviously you can't come to my room cuz it is in the girls' hostel.

I let it go, these feelings. After a while I didn't feel so pressured anymore. I'm just not really sure how our friendship with Eli can be OK again. Sis saw her several times a day and she said she's getting more awkward and ignorant each time. Which is pretty obvious in the way that she doesn't have anything to talk about with us, but she has stuff to talk about with others. When she was in the canteen, she waved to all of them and I didn't know if she saw me (she should have) but she didn't turn to me and waved in the distance.

*sigh*

I let it go. We're trying our best and if she insist on being difficult, it's her choice.