(This post was written yesterday.)
It’s the morning after that I’m writing this. Listening to music alone in the room (bliss!) and I’m still suffering the product of my late-night sleep yesternight. I am eternally grateful to the people that helped me on my first day, namely sis's friends. All of you made me feel welcomed and eased my anxiety. ^.^ It didn't even feel like a first day of school.
I was really nervous to the point that I felt like puking whenever I thought of my classes and my course mates as I am the only Chinese girl in my intake. It didn't really matter much if all of them are open to races as well, but some people tend to stick only to people of the same race. But then again I didn't want to impose ideas on the classes that I haven't even started; it's giving me unnecessary tension.
In the morning (7:45am), sis and I had breakfast together. We are trying to eat breakfast together every day and also because there's wifi in the canteen. Sis had an early class so I went back to my room after breakfast and changed into class clothes. My first class was at 4pm so I had the whole day ahead of me. The class schedule for Foundation hasn't been updated so I have a blank schedule and I'm freaking out. I went to the office as requested during orientation to settle my schedule stuff at 9:30am. It didn't take long, sis didn't take long for her class as well (because it was only briefing), so we met up again!
While waiting for her at the canteen, I looked around at my cool and serene surroundings (as most people were already in class) and felt like crying. "I made it," I said to myself. "Finally, I made it." I don't know why I feel so emotional about being able to start uni but somehow I just feel really thankful and lucky. Peace and relief filled my heart and I am just overwhelmed. Then sis came and she showed me around.
(Omg I feel so sleep-deprived I wanna vomit. Still have to drag myself to the office again to inquire about stuff.) Together, the two of us toured all the faculty buildings. /toomuchenergy/ We also went to find out where my 4pm class is at, which happens to be at the Engineering building. Even after that, we still have a ton of time in our hands so we explored the FCM building and visited various toilets around campus. We met sis’s General English lecturer and chatted a little with him (we pretended to ‘coincidentally’ be there lol). We explored some more - the halls were dark and quiet and it was so exciting. We looked at the artworks behind the glass doors and they were beautiful. *.*
We went to Coolblog which is almost on the other side of campus (OTZ), bought drinks and walked all the way back to our hostel. Coolblog is kinda like Chatime where they sell milk tea, ice-blended drinks and stuff - all of them are the same anyway. While waiting for 1pm to come (lunch with sis's friends), we hung out at sis’s room and watched Tokyo Ghoul. It was kinda boring for us though, or maybe we have to wait a little longer for the interesting part to come? And omg, that girl looks too mature for him!! How are they supposed to be the same age?
I also texted Yuto, wishing him good luck on his first day. /goodfriend/ I’m wondering, since I call him straight up ‘Yuto’, do I sound too bold for a stranger lol? It would have been weird for me to put honorifics behind his name.
So we had lunch with a bunch of sis’s friends and I frequently checked the FCM Girls watsapp group for additional info. I told them to meet at the office at 3:30pm like the man told me. Lunch was fun, at least I felt comfortable and excited - it made me feel ready to face my class haha. After lunch, sis had class again so I went back to my room for a while. Sis then sms-ed me that she saw Yuto and he waved! #wrongperson It’s good to know that if he ever sees me, he will wave. ^.^ Sis also saw Zuk and Jeff but she said only Jeff noticed her, probably because Zuk is so tall he doesn't notice things below his eye level? XD
I went to class - first class ever is Creative English. My teacher, I mean lecturer, is Miss Marshall and she is strict but she said she’s trying to change that. She seemed like a reasonable person but let's hope she really is one. There’s only 16 people in my class, way way less than the usual number of students. Miss Marshall also wanted everyone to use gmail for work and I have to put my cosplay account gmail address. OTZ I hope nobody would actually add me in FB through that omg.
She wanted us to get in groups of 3 as well, but with conditions - no same gender, no same race. *fliptable* For this semester, everyone will be taking Creative English but each lecturer’s teaching style is different. We have to do short stories, poems (we have to record ourselves reading it!!), scripts for advertisement, among others. /ohGodwhy/ “Welcome to MMU,” she even told us. Everything will be harder than the usual syllables. Well. OK.
Before going out after finishing class, I went over and bid her goodbye. Like sis recommended. It makes the lecturer remembers you and for me, its just basic manners. But I can’t help thinking that there's the slight possibility they’ll think you are being nice to get in their good book. Hmm... Anyhow, I am somewhat excited to start school.
“Stress is good, but too much of it at the beginning is not good,” Miss Marshall advised and it got me thinking. I should calm myself down as I am susceptible to anxiety. *sigh* I don’t know why I can't be like any other normal person and not think about things too much. Like it’s no big deal, you know? But that’s just who I am and everyone has their own shit to deal with. :)
After my class, sis and I strolled on the other side of campus - the one where the fields and swimming pool are located. Walking around like that, it reminds me of when we were in Singapore. We were actually planning to go to Alamanda for dinner and to celebrate Aini’s (sis’s friend) birthday, but we didn't make it in the end because of time constrain and I felt so damn tired so we just had dinner at the canteen.
We continued watching Tokyo Ghoul after dinner in my room but still it was boring. Why!? So we watched Divergent instead, which was really great although I can’t help thinking about The Fault in Our Stars because both of them are in it. I checked my schedule once again (I lost count of how many times I went into MMU Portal in a day) and voila! - it’s there!! My heart skipped a beat when I saw the green boxes (representing classes) on my schedule. For some reason it was the same feeling as receiving the same my SPM results lol. Somehow I am beyond happy, is this normal? Having my schedule with me melts away the worries from my brain and heart~ I can finally plan my time!
It was after 12am when Divergent ended and the both of us went for a little walk among the chilly night air. Ah, so nice~ We sat down beside the road and chatted for a while before going back to our rooms. Is this how freedom feels like?
Well, classes are not officially starting yet so I may have free time now, but when it starts, goodbye free time. ;_; It was a day well-spent thought - it was a loooooong day. I've done so much.
Let’s go back to now - the next day. One important advice when school starts - sleep when you can!! Ahh, don't waste time!! *grabs head* I feel like shit today thanks to myself.
I’m just gonna take each day one by one and give it my all.
