I'm actually out of NS now and I'm intending to finish posting up to the final week before I write a summary post, so that it doesn't get jumbled up or anything. Went out on an outing yesterday with a bunch of people I knew from Christian class. I'd always wanted to be their friends, but it didn't happen, until the week before NS's supposed to end. ._. It was quite unexpected. But I have to say that they are one of the nicest people I know! Sometimes I still can't believe I'm friends with them. <.<
The entries below are from when we came back from our semester break. Yes, we do have a break.
02.06, Mon (Day 59)
Arrived back in camp, now resting at dorm.
Thank you to Shikin and the girls who went back on the 30th for moving our beds to the front!! QAQ I went to my usual bed, but instead I was directed to the corner bed by friends. Then I noticed my name on the next locker.
Currently there are 10 girls in dorm 2 and 12 in dorm 1. I don't think we're transferring to dorm 1 - at least I don't hope so.
Hmmm... Time to start a new life with a pangkat and less girls, and without one or two trusty friends and someone to look at while smiling myself silly.
I (most of us) went back on the 29th - a day earlier than the scheduled date, because our komandan was kind enough to allow that. Shhh, don't tell the government!
Ahh, I miss the times when I still write 'Day 50-something' in my diary!!
Do you see a star?
I think it was done by the girls who went back on the 30th.
"The star symbolizes our friendship."
03.06, Tues (Day 60)
You're simply a ghost of my imagination now...
;_;
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It doesn't feel like the NS it used to be. I miss the times when we practice for Hari Belia and the day itself. I miss going to KLIA 2, UPM, PWTC... I miss chatting merrily at the pondok, doing silly stuff or talking about personal stuff. I miss washing plates and cups and scanning the sinks in front for him. I miss chatting nonstop with Voon, holding hands walking up the stairs to our dorms, eating fruits together. A lot of things. I miss it all.
04.06, Wed (Day 61)
Current time: 0339. To the firing range!
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Current time: 2314. Feeling sleepy now, waiting for hair to dry.
I was fortunate enough to have sufficiently 20 bullets to shoot - why didn't I shoot patiently and just enjoy the moment? Kinda feeling regret now, but its no use.
The recoil wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The sound is just like fireworks. Overall, its OK. Except I was a little shaken by the realness of the moment and felt panic rising.
The most ridiculous thing was that I couldn't see the bullets at all - they are so tiny! And while I was aiming, the soldier asked me not to put my face so near the M16, and then I couldn't aim at all. Whenever I tried positioning my aim to my target, she would reposition me to the left (which also happened to Wen Hui). Arghh, its so confusing! I don't even know how much I scored - probably zero.
Hah! Goodnight.
Woke up at 0230 - the earliest I'd ever woken up. Such an ungodly hour.
Wooo~ Ate matcha-flavoured Kit Kat for the first time!
05.06, Thurs (Day 62)
Detail 4, Target 9.
The results for the shooting came out pasted on the wall today. I actually got a 37 (a fail, btw haha), and I am actually surprised. I thought I would get a 0 as I was not aiming properly and for most I randomly shot. The passing mark is 50. Highest points for girl is 81, boy is 79. How in the world could they see the bullets - or was it just pure luck?? ._. How did they even aim?
There were 4 circles - the middle, 5, 4 and 3 (3 being the outermost). I scored 10/20 bullets; 3 on 5, 1 on 4 and 6 on 3. I don't know about the bullseye. Overall, I guess I'm kinda satisfied, but it would have been great to have another go. One where I actually aim properly.
I'll show you my provision. :)
It doesn't look like a lot, but when I have to go back, the amount of food doubles (or even triples!) because we kept having parties and I have more food added to my inventory, Food which I will ALL bring home instead of eating it all there. OTZ
06.06, Fri (Day 63)
Had a bleep test today, and instead of the padang kawad, we had it at the dewan makan. Which will make our score inaccurate, if you ask me, cuz the padang kawad's larger and its hot.
The radio actually goes off like this (instead of how I've explained):
Level 1-1 to 1-7
Level 2-1 to 2-8 (same for Level 3)
Level 4-1 to 4-10 (for above Level 4; but for the higher Levels, eg Lvl 11, it could have reached 11-12)
Last time, I made 4-1; this time... 7-3! I don't know how in the world I did that, because normally people improve by 2 levels only. I was surprised myself. The highest score goes to Joyce (who got an 8-1) and also the only person that surpassed me. She's the highest girl scorer, so that makes me 2nd in girls for overall!
The 3 remaining companies' highest scorers are at the Level 6 point (the most, Bravo, has 6-10). The boys were freaking awesome - they ran up to about Level 12 and the JLs had to ask them to stop. LOL Even an average boy can score at Level 8 and above. /claps hands/
Kelly asked me how I improved so much and I'm like "I don't know!". I did what you all did, ate what you all ate; everything - I too wanna know what happened. ._.
Mushroom asked me to wake up and exercise with her every day at 2am and I'm like what. ._. I value my sleep!!
Basically this is how much locker looks like:
They'll tell you what to put in each compartment, so don't you worry.
You might have noticed that I didn't show you what's in the drawer - that's because there's where you put your private things.
07.06, Sat (Day 64)
Pertandingan kawad's coming soon and we practiced today (4~7pm). Joyce and I are the only non-muslim girls in kawad. ._. Apparently, other girls doesn't wanna join cuz its tough & tiring, and they're scared of getting dark (some only, I assume).
Tired and a little headache now, but I'm gonna read the bible a bit. Cuz its wacky and some parts made me go like 'O.O'. I guess the children's bible I used to read aren't detailed enough. :P
p.s. We won 1st place for nasyid!
[pertandingan kawad - marching competition]
[nasyid - a choir that muslims sing]
Eagle!!
09.06, Mon (Day 66)
The blood donating campaign is happening right now; but I didn't donate. Only about 10~20% of people volunteered.
A lot of people are sick now, probably because of the heat. I'm still fine, just a little mouth ulcer. Ah Ying was so feverish this morning that she stayed up in the dorm. Panjang's having a fever too - no wonder yesterday when I waved to him, he didn't look quite right.
We had kawad practice this morning, and later in the afternoon (maybe it will be like this till the day of the competition ;_;). Arghhh, my right eye hurts since about 2 days ago. Don't know what is wrong, sigh... Have to remember to drink lots of water, I'm easily heated up. But I have to thank God that sicknesses have been kind on me so far; I never caught anything else except the cough (from people) and flu & sore throat (from the heat).
(I miss him so much.)
17 days till the end of camp.
Its funny how you miss someone so much, but then after a while, you suddenly realize you don't miss him/her so much after all. I guess it also depends on what happens thereafter - I made new friends and got myself really into the activities, so I'd say I made the transition quite well.
Ice-cream!! This is my favourite. <3
Traffic light! Childhood ice-cream.
Izzaty's mom brought it and she shared it with us.
It was the first time I ate such a sweet corn fresh out of its cover (??).
Normally it would have tasted bland.
It looks like a fairy corn.
10.06, Tues (Day 67)
We entered a new (and possibly last) module today; Modul Integrasi that talks about religion, cultures and the role of both male and female in the world. Today was about culture. We were separated into 6 groups (6~7 people per group) and we had to do several presentations in certain styles (eg: singing, demonstration).
Did traditional dances, clothings and martial arts. After about 4:30, we played traditional games (Baling/Susun Selipar, Ayam dan Itik, Batu Seremban, Congkak, chess - black and red ones - and some more I'd never played before). Everyone was so hyper - it was fun!
Currently, Alpha wati is in a mess because some wants to change the Ketua Dorm 1; they said she did not do her duties properly, is unreasonable and only uses her mouth. I kinda don't like her, but its not cuz of these issues - I simply dislike her because she pushes people, is rude and 'fat chiao'. I beh tahan her.
Actually I cannot tahan the Malays in Dorm 1 (with the exception of Siswi and Mak Leha); they tick me off.
Aiyah, don't want to talk anymore. Hope the roll call is quick afterwards because I want to wash my hair.
[Modul Integrasi - integration module]
[ketua - leader]
['fat chiao' - vain/flirty]
[beh tahan - cannot stand]
[tahan - stand]
11.06, Wed (Day 68)
For the first time (actually the 2nd time LOL), I talked to Chris. The first time was with Cindy and I just asked him some questions, but this time, I chatted a lil with him. I've always thought he looked a lil stern and scary, but he's actually kinda good. XD
OK la, sometimes he's still cold. LOL But that's just who he is. Yeah, he's actually a pretty nice guy.
12.06, Thurs (Day 69)
Edmund's going back today and even though I don't know him well, I felt sad. A little bit like the feeling I felt when Andrew went away. Edmund's this really kind guy that smiles always and helps around and is nice to everybody. A lot of girls admire him cuz he's handsome. LOL OK la, he's a lil handsome but I don't always look at him.
But, I think he has a girl he likes in camp; they are always together and close. Now he's outside the van that's gonna bring him to the airport and she's there too. I don't know how she's gonna feel.
Just now I asked if he was going back today, he said yeah and we said bye. He was smiling - ah, so nice. XD He told me to take care,
We will miss you, Q!
(Its such a waste he's leaving so late - just 14 days before camp ends - he's not gonna be able to have the sijil pangkat...)
p.s. Touch wood, but everytime someone leaves, it feels like they've died. That feeling of finality; its so real.
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Time: 2226. Feeling post-high now. The last class was supeeeeeer FUN!!!
[sijil pangkat - position/status/post certificate]
I was talking about the last Christian class - I had a ball of a time.
Snacks from the party
This is our church!
Can you see it? It looks like 2 creatures fighting. Big one on the left, small one on the right.
Look! This newspaper is so cute!
13.06, Fri (Day 70)
Time: 2344. (What!? Day 70!?)
Haha its great to sleep at the side bed cuz I have a 'bedside table' (more like a bedend table) which is a concrete extension to put our water dispenser. But the stupid thing is that I can't correct my cadar properly cuz one side is on the wall!!
Trivia: My class shoes got exchanged TWICE this week (once on Wed and once on Thurs). Luckily, the shoes are the same size as mine, is in a better condition (appearance and function-wise) and is sturdy. My right shoe is a bit cacat, so be careful whoever wore my shoes. ._. God bless you.
Just finished choir practice. Will be having kawad practice tomorrow morning and then choir practice. I'm taking part in stuff as much as I can cuz I can get certs for joining competitions. Monday is pertandingan kawad, Tuesday is SSP (choir and drama - I'm in drama as an orang kampung) and Wednesday we go into the forest! =D
Oyasumi - I'm tired... Zzz.
[cadar - bedsheet]
[cacat - retarded]
[orang kampung - villager]
[oyasumi - goodnight]
[SSP (Semarak Semangat Patriotik) - something like 'the spirit of patriotism']
14.06, Sat (Day 71)
Did plenty of choir practice today - I'm satisfied with the outcome. =) I love choir!! (But I won't do good as a lead singer cuz my voice is not strong.)
Practiced with Ying at the Dewan Makan cuz I sing base and she's the back-up (high notes, long notes, etc). I told her to record (because I thought it sounded wonderful) and I'm grateful I did. I think my singing actually improved. LOL I can sing from my stomach most of the time and breathe enough to have energy to sing.
But now I have cough and I hurt the back of my feet today. ._. Why.
Hmm... Still can't believe we have 1 and a half week left - it does not feel like reality. Its this really conflicted feeling of wanting camp but also wanting to go home.
Practicing the hand movements for one of our songs - Barisan Kita.
Choir practice
Drama practice - we did it in a tiny room cramped with all of us.
That specky guy to the left is Vince btw. This was from when we weren't friends yet.
Omg, she's so vain I cannot. OTZ I just had to take a picture of her.
Cikgu Talib sitting on the 'dead' people.
Reminds me of the makkuro kurosukes and their food in Spirited Away
We practiced outside later on
End of practice~
15.06, Sun (Day 72)
Happy Father's Day! =D
We're sitting at the Dewan Makan waiting for breakfast while the other 3 companies are practicing for kawad and SSP. For the first time, Alpha is so relaxed. LOL
Was so tired nowadays cuz of kawad and SSP, and I found myself having trouble waking up by myself - I have to rely on someone. <.< Today my phone vibrated (alarm), I heard it, but thought it wasn't my alarm omg.
My voice is a little hoarse now and my phlegm got worst. -.- My right leg has this tugging and tight feeling. Ugh.
I hope we do well on the real day; to me, the practice's results are satisfying enough. Kawad we're doing fine (we even got praises from other companies) and I love the songs we're doing for choir. So far so good; we just have to keep it up and fix a little bit of this and that.
Going out with the Christian gang again in the evening to play sports. We went out yesterday, watched a movie and chatted a lot. I should stop referring to them as the 'Christian gang' and to 'my friends' instead. XD For the first time, everyone has an English name, legitly, and we prayed before eating. It wasn't what I usually do with my friends, but it was different and nice. :)
Went into Sunway Uni with Chris because he wanted to see his lecturers (and also because they are going to eat in Subway, so I followed him to avoid spending so much). He really misses his Uni a lot and he looked so soft when he said that, that I couldn't help but smile. Ah, his soft side. Not bad. When we crossed the road back to Sunway, he automatically stood at the side of the oncoming cars. So... nice.
