Jump!★

Growing up, since my kindie days, I had never once stayed in a school for long. ;_; I used to change kindie every year and then went to 2 primary schools. When I entered sec school, I told Mom that I wanted to stay here till I graduate. I want to try completing something. And I did stay, and I graduated!

The first thing I noticed and liked about the school was the fish pond/fountain (which was a fish statue spraying a line of water) and I thought it was the most beautiful thing ever to be in a school. No joke. It looked pretty ordinary after all these years, but nevertheless, I once thought it was wonderful. There's koi fishes and I loved looking at them.

I started out sec school hanging out with my friends from pri school whom eventually moved on to make new friends and we were left alone. I couldn't really make friends cuz everybody seemed to be in a group already - it was really stressful. And it doesn't help that sis and me only talked to each other. LOL And I was a bookworm and very, very unsociable. So I guess in a way it was my fault.

Still, some people were mean. Most of them grew OK, but some of them are still mean!

Somewhere along the way, sis and me started to hang out by a tree we named the 'Caterpillar Tree' because of its leaves. It was bulgy and had rounded pop-up shapes so it kinda looked like a caterpillar. It was our secret place. Unfortunately, it was near the bus stop and we must have looked weird talking to ourselves by that tree. ._. But its OK, because it helped us pass time during co-curriculum. We even adopted a wooden tortoise keychain someone dropped and assigned it as the guardian of Caterpillar Tree. We named it Madam Tor Toise and we kept it under a rock which we soon discovered were home to some army of ants. Ugh. Caterpillar Tree would flourish sometimes, its pink flowers laid on the topmost layer of the tree so it looked like pink snow. But slowly, as we grew older, we gradually stopped visiting Caterpillar Tree. I feel guilty about it a lot of time, but there was just no time. Caterpillar Tree, I'm sorry...

When I was in Form 3, I had unexpectedly transferred to the last class. I was so devastated and shocked, but since 2 of my classmates were there, I thought it would be OK. Turns out it was a path I never regretted. In that year, I actually got accepted even though there was that slight language barrier.

I was so clueless when I first got there, can you believe it! I honestly did not know what was happening, and the boys seemed to be hyperactive and the class was a mess. But through them, I realized that just cuz you are in the last class, it doesn't meant that you're rude, lazy and stupid. Some of them really tries hard. And from them I also learnt more curse words that enabled me to understand what was happening. It helped me adapt to my situation easier and whenever I am confused about something, I turned to Yu Wen and she would explain it to me. I meant curse words and weird behaviours and stuff.

Then, I transferred these knowledge to my sister whom was in some front classes. *guilty* I was forever changed from that year. I became more active in class as people were always seeking for my help cuz I was one of the only students who were serious in class. And they considered me smart. ._. I think they can do it too. Just cuz I am good in English and seemed to be always doing school stuff, they think I'm like a walking encyclopedia.

But I secretly thanked them - if not for them, I don't think I can be this crazy. I became a happier girl and I was more outspoken cuz the boys and girls were louder than students in front classes. It was very hectic. And they loved to see me draw and I would feel so embarrassed when people crowd around my table. OTZ

Believe it or not, I was the only one doing my best in Art class. To the point where our Art teacher became like my private tutor instead. LOL She gave me tips on colour tones and stuff and would ask for my help on art stuff. Obviously, it became my favourite subject.

Then PMR came and I thought it was OK. But then when I went and claimed my results, I was shocked beyond belief that I had 2As only. Like wth... I wanted to cry there and then and I felt like my world was literally crashing down on me. This was because of some stupid sickness that I didn't knew I had that time and unknowingly studying so damn hard but it didn't go to my head. (I got better after that. LOL)

That afternoon I went back and cried on my bed. I think. And I was staring at the slip for so long and telling myself that I will use this as a motivation for SPM. SPM seemed like a looong time then, but its not!! See, now SPM's over already!! So I studied and studied and tried my best. During my first few months of F4, my grades were horrible. ;_; That time, I started contemplating maybe I'm borne stupid. And there was the switching classes and stuff, cuz I wanna switch to Pure Science from Sub Science, and I missed out on some stuff. OTZ It took me almost a year to understand what I missed!


Then bla bla bla, F5 came and there was unexpectedly a lot of free time. LOL My resolve to study hard for the whole year slowly dissipated - in which I pick up again near SPM. XD I have my tuition and school teachers to thank too - but I'll dedicate a Gratitude Post for them sometime. 'Sometime'. Wah, then so fast - SPM came. I think overall SPM was OK. It was tricky, no joke. For this year.






I made a lot of new friends in F4 cuz I made the decision to be more open and interact and I was back to the same class as my sister. In no time, I was actually participating in whatever activities they are having and now we are such best buds! Who would have thought. The young me would have been secretly happy for me but probably wouldn't try to make friends. <.<

Aside from all these academic stuff, I did a lot of other stuff in school. When we were in F2, Ashley kinda forced us to audition for Teacher's Day because we were so shy. I never regretted that. Secretly I thanked her everytime I think about my happiness when I'm dancing on stage. If not for her, I think I might still be in a shell now. ;_; Students liked it, but I can still clearly remembered how quiet the rows of VIPs, teachers and headmistress were when we danced because it was a Japanese song (Luka Luka Night Fever). Guess they weren't expecting that, LOL - surprise!

Then, this year, we tried dancing again. I was excited to do it all over again, but I feared the adults' reactions. What are they gonna think? We used a Japanese song again (Senbonzakura) and this time with short yukatas (but we wore black stockings).


But people loved it! I was so happy I think I could cry. One of the PIBG talked to me and said that it was great! I couldn't thank her enough omg. I think its also because the other performances before us were very boring - I didn't say it! People told me! Ours' were one of the last, so I think it really brings up the atmosphere. =^.^= I was so happy when I danced and it was the first time I danced without fearing anything - I just looked straight at straight-faced people and smiled all I want because I loved being on stage and dancing. After that, the teacher requested us to dance again during Hari Anugerah as a welcoming dance - but this time was awkward. LOL

And I sang in a choir with my classmates! It was kinda sucky and stuff, but it was funny and we had a fun time practicing. Also, I cosplayed with sis during Sports Day! Its kinda like a YOLO thing. Since its our last year and stuff. :) I think I achieved a lot this year! Go me!


Oh and everytime I finish early for SPM, I would go to the pond to look at the fishes. My dream was to feed the fishes, but I don't think they let students do that - I just have to see teachers pouring in excessive fish food from the stairs. I'm sure I looked weird to be wandering around the pond alone, but I tried to be quick and appreciate the beauty of the pond which had so fascinated me when I first saw it.